Happy Thanksgiving Eve!
Well, it’s the day before Thanksgiving (again?!? didn’t we just do this last year?) so I’m trying to be grateful. This is what I’m grateful for (in no particular order) :
1.Although some find the changing of the seasons at this time of year charming, I think that’s only true for about a four-day weekend. After that, winter becomes hard work, and that’s why I’m grateful I’m not shoveling snow : it’s 74o here.
2.My roommate is working at the moment, so it looks like turkey dinner is in the cards this year (last year it was chicken).
3.I’m on a new med this year (Humira), which seems to be working, so I won’t spend Thursday evening in the restroom. These days I only have to do ‘latrine duty’ in the mornings; on the best days not at all.
4.Last year the only person I knew in the building was my roomie, having moved in not long before the holiday season. This year I have lots of neighbors to say “Happy Thanksgiving!” to, even if I’m not really feeling it.
5.My head is a lot clearer than it was a year ago, since I was taking 600mg./day of Seroquel then, and I’m only taking 25mg./day now.
6.The lights are on (for now, at least).
7.I have Internet access at home, however slow the speed or bad the customer service (AT&T has problems dealing with actual people, apparently).
8. I have love in my life this year (corny, right?).
10. Medicinal marijuana laws.
I was shooting for ten things I’m grateful for, but I only stopped at 11 because 11 is one of my lucky numbers. I thought of lots of other things I’m thankful for: the people who are nice to me, the new books I’m reading, the beach, Internet porn…surprisingly, the list is endless, but only when I’m
in a good mood. Depression reduces this list to one sometimes: 1. I haven’t killed myself.
Strange how different the world is when you’re on the right antidepressants. It’s the difference between the condemned man and the child picking flowers far outside the windows of his prison.
I’m glad to be picking daisies today, instead of pushing them up from below. Good enough for me.
If anyone reads this today, I hope you’re grateful, too.